Since coming back from our trip I seem to have been hit with a case of the blues. Maybe the heat and drought are getting to me or maybe the uncertainty of irregular paychecks, not to mention coming off of the high of vacation; enjoying nature and taking a break from everyday life.
I got several things accomplished over the weekend but was feeling exhausted and unmotivated by Monday. I wanted to just lay around in bed, maybe even mope but I still have two littles to attend to. Ok so I did mope a little.
We have now been in the rental for four months, longer than I expected or planned to be. I look around at the still unpacked boxes stacked in the kitchen, on the porch and a couple in various rooms waiting for the day we can pick up and go wherever it was we are supposed to be going. Not anymore. They have now found residence in the basement, cabinets or trash can. I’m this close to hanging some decor while I’m at it.
When we sold our house back in March after calling it home for 6 1/2 years we had done a pretty good amount of fixing it up and decorating it to our liking. I had painted and decorated most of the rooms and my husband had installed a gorgeous master bath and completely landscaped the yard (surprise surprise 😉 and we had a wonderful deck and garden and enough room for friends and family to come visit. It was our first and only house and where we lived when our babies were born.
I’ll be honest, it’s hard to get motivated about being in the rental. Not because we’re not thankful for a house to live in for a decent price but we’re limited on what we can change or do. Plus who wants to spend much money on something they don’t own especially when the plan isn’t or wasn’t to stay here long anyway.
This is the hand we’ve been dealt right now and while in reality its not bad it’s not what we envisioned either. I think I’m starting to find my groove and accept the fact that it is what is and make the best of it. I know my job is still to do what’s best with what I have no matter how big or small and maybe someday we’ll feel “home” again.
P.S. Did I mention it has also been extremely hot and dry this summer. It was 110 degrees the day I took this pic and my son was upset because I told him it was time to come in and cool off…..
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